The first thing I notice when I walk into a room usually comes down to what or who is in a room. How about if you are faced with only a room full of rubber ducks? Pretty amazing, right? Well...my point being that the first thing you would obviously notice is, well, rubber ducks. If you're faced with a whole room of, well, nothing...that is, just air (atoms) then what is there to observe? Nothing, right?
Sometimes I worry that when I walk into the room...people are faced with the same thoughts....what is there to be seen except, well, nothing?
Depressing first post, eh?
Actually, at the minute I do not feel too bad.
I have just returned from THE most amazing camp ever! It was an SU adventure camp for 15-18 year olds and you really meet some interesting people as well as getting some interesting bruises all over your very interesting body (okay, okay, I took the adjective too far, I admit it!) Usually at this camp I feel completely inadequate because all the girls are so glamorous, even when drenched in sea weed in an unflattering and ill-fitting wetsuit with no make up whatsoever but this year, I actually felt like I belonged...probably because about half of the girls were already my friends and they're just so amazing that they were always complimenting me on everything.
Now, I'm not sure what your religious beliefs are but before I went to this camp I was dubious... an SU camp?? (For all you non-UK ers, S U stands for Scripture Union and is a Christian society which organises camps/missions) I did consider myself a Christian but I was seriously doubting the whole thing, I had been so hurt in the past year that I was thinking, "Can God really exist in the world as it is today?"
After camp, I can honestly say: God lives and moves among us. Wow! The presence of God was actually unbelievable...I actually started crying I could feel him so much and had to go for a walk on my own to be with him and try and listen....it was a truly amazing experience.
Have any of you had similar experiences?
What was I talking about anyway?
Oh yeah...well I definitely think that camp helped me so much and I definitely met...interesting people (OKAY, I'm seriously going to stop saying the word 'interesting' now!)
Let's just say that the C dawg herself has had to drop her cynical ways because...in all honesty, I have met someone who could completely fulfill me....except for his obvious problem of already being attached...WHICH he didn't tell me about the whole week!
How annoying is that??? Can anyone explain to me how someone could spend a whole week letting me practically drape myself over him, with everyone making comments about us and not happen to mention the whole week that he has had a girlfriend for NINE MONTHS??? It was seriously shocking to find out from someone else on the last night....when afterwards, I still proceeded to lie on top of him in his bed and make strangely suggestive comments (by accident of course) I don't know what made me lie on top of him...maybe I wanted to push him to see if he mentioned his girlfriend...maybe I just wanted to forget about her and think about myself for once...maybe I just wanted to see what it felt like to be the other woman? In all honesty...it didn't feel all that bad...it's nice to have a challenge...but I don't want to make him dump her because I'd feel bad for her...at the same time, I can see us happening eventually...boys are weak, you never know what might happen...
xo xo
Letlooseonweb (Christine)
