Rawr!

OMW! I am suddenly gripped by something I can only describe as "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGHKNFIOBWEGIBOGBOIBGOIAJIOJ[EJGPgn!!!" so yeah...I really want to yell at someone but nobody is really to blame, so I decided instead I would rant on my blog...I am so glad I joined this site because now hopefully I shall be able to yell and generally make an eejit of myself on here without people in public doing that whole raise eyebrow/shift away thing!

Then again, saying that nobody to blame is not strictly true.

That stupid boy of camp is getting to me too much, I can't even say why because I like to think I am fiercely independent and that I don't need any boy to tell me what to do..or how to be feeling either. He's more confusing me than anything though...what does everyone think

So I decided that I would try and be a generally lovely person and turn over a new leaf because I have been quite mean in the past so I wrote him a lovely long email about how I was going to try and
1. Compliment him every day. I know that seems weird but I know he is lacking in self- confidence and I thought it would really help me on crap days to have someone just being there and saying, "You have a lovely smile" every so often, you know? Was that so wrong?

and then 2. I was going to send him a new song each day that I thought he would like because, while we compared ipods I discovered that our itunes libraries must be nearly identical because we have so much music choices in common so i thought it would be nice to have someone to compare music with as well... was I so wrong??

So he just hasn't replied at all and I'm thinking, 'That's some bad voodoo, right there'

Then, it didn't help that I read 'The Bell Jar' by Sylvia Plath this afternoon (which, by the way, is a REALLY good book- like seriously fascinating and she writes...just so...like blogging really, such a relateable style...although that might show my instability as her character ended up in an asylum...*ahem*) and it's not the most positive book...nor is it meant to be, but it's such a feminist, angry book that it just made me feminist and angry..ha ha!

So... what on earth am I rambling about?

Yeah, well it didn't help my mood by the weather doing that amazing pathetic fallacy thing...I was lying in the conservatory reading my angry book and the rain actually was CRAZY...then LIGHTNING came and even some thunder and it was just like 'Yes!!!' I love it when that happens...

Might make myself go to bed soon to avoid yelling at an actual person...already had a battle over the lasagne with my sister where she actually tried to strangle me... I was shocked too, that sort of thing has happened since she stabbed me in the arm with her fork- there was actual fork marks- GOOD ACTUAL GRIEF!